Remember when I used to blog and update you about our life? Well, ya know. My bad.

So, lots of time has passed since Tony got home, which is apparently when I last blogged. Good grief. Here are some bullets to catch you up.

1. I’ve decided I like life alot better when I’m living with my husband.

2. Work stress/nonsense is much more tolerable when I’m not coming home to an empty apartment.

3. I have less than one year left of my Air Force commitment and have already had one phone interview for urgent care and have another one scheduled this week. The light at the end of this tunnel no longer has the appearance of a freight train.

4. Tony is still looking for a full time job. Depending on how this pans out over the next few months, we will then make a decision on where we will be moving in December. We both are kind of hoping for eastern Pa/Wilmington area.

5. We have been able to see alot of family since he got home. But, WOW. We’re kinda tired of traveling. The next several weekends will likely be spent at home on our couch. From there I can work on state licensing forms, etc.

6. I cut all my hair off. I mean, I didn’t shave it, but pretty close. It’s easy. Tony loves it. I may never have long hair again.

7. Today is a snow day for federal workers in the National Capitol Region. Yes Lord.

8. We had a most fabulous trip to Lake Tahoe, CA for 2 wks in December to celebrate our two year anniversary. It was fabulous. We are also entering daily to win the HGTV sweepstakes house there. If we win, we may let you come visit. That totally depends on who you are though. Just being honest.

Those are pretty much the highlights. The fam is doing well. We are excited to see where the next 11-12 months will take us. Right now we have no idea, but hopefully soon some things will start to line up.

Hope you and yours are fab. Peace.

Thanksgiving in Kentucky 2013. First time in 2.5 yrs we had all been together. What a fabulous crew.

Thanksgiving in Kentucky 2013. First time in 2.5 yrs we had all been together. What a fabulous crew.

"Little" brother. Proud of what he does and am happy to report that hafter his nasty leg fracture and surgery last year he's back up in the helicopter and doing great. I'm humbled to say I get to take care of people like him every day.

“Little” brother. Proud of what he does and am happy to report that hafter his nasty leg fracture and surgery last year he’s back up in the helicopter and doing great. I’m humbled to say I get to take care of people like him every day.

Lake Tahoe. Gorgeous. Seriously...what if we won that house?!?!

Lake Tahoe. Gorgeous. Seriously…what if we won that house?!?!

Snowboarding. Surprisingly, not as easy as it looks in the Olympics commercials.

Snowboarding. Surprisingly, not as easy as it looks in the Olympics commercials.

Christmas Eve with my man by my side. Thank. You. Jesus.

Christmas Eve with my man by my side. Thank. You. Jesus.

 

 

 

 

 

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at the airport. i cried like a baby when he came around the corner. so grateful to have him home.

at the airport. i cried like a baby when he came around the corner. so grateful to have him home.

life is as it should be. i was blessed to get a week off to be home with tony once he arrived.

life is as it should be. i was blessed to get a week off to be home with tony once he arrived.

new vehicle! we were blessed this deployment to pay off tony's truck, which i had been driving while he was gone. now that he's home we needed a new car and we got a great deal on a new chevy equinox! pretty pumped!

new vehicle! we were blessed this deployment to pay off tony’s truck, which i had been driving while he was gone. now that he’s home we needed a new car and we got a great deal on a new chevy equinox! pretty pumped!

very quick surprise dinner with viv and her fam...my mom had just helped them move up so we stopped in for a couple hours for dinner and to see their new house.

very quick surprise dinner with viv and her fam…my mom had just helped them move up so we stopped in for a couple hours for dinner and to see their new house.

GORGEOUS section of the farm where viv and her fam live now

GORGEOUS section of the farm where viv and her fam live now

classic momma. the good and plenty candies were stale so she microwaved them. as a result, keegan kept walking around asking for "one of those hot things". i love that woman

classic momma. the good and plenty candies were stale so she microwaved them. as a result, keegan kept walking around asking for “one of those hot things”. i love that woman

twister with keegan. i had done legs at the gym two days earlier. bad idea.

twister with keegan. i had done legs at the gym two days earlier. bad idea.

the return of the "shirket". tony's favorite piece of clothing. he's so super cute.

the return of the “shirket”. tony’s favorite piece of clothing. he’s so super cute.

ladies and gentlemen…HE’S HOME!!! thank you Jesus for the safe return of my love. we have had a great week together…i was off of work which was such a blessing. the pics above are the bulk of this post. below I’ll give a brief synopsis of what’s to come for us, and then end with a text that tony received from one of his men this week that paints the perfect picture of why i’m proud to be mrs. leibig.

For us…I got back to work tomorrow. Sad, however the good news is that my husband will be home when i get here at the end of the day! i can’t believe it. so exciting. the other good news is that i now have a partner again at work. thank goodness. since early june i have been the only permanent provider on my team since my last partner separated from the air force. what this means is that i have been covering labs and phone calls and appointments for not only my own 1300 patients, but also for all of hers. this new doc being here now is a tremendous relief. however, we are still short 6 providers in the clinic total, so things are still tight and stressful. but at this point, i’ll take what i can get. once he gets settled in, i hope to get back to teaching the PALS and ACLS courses periodically again. I also hope to start doing some writing of case studies for journal submission.

Tony is getting settled in. he will be working to pursue active duty and his dream of flying. lots of different steps ahead and hoops to jump through. together we’re seeking God’s wisdom and direction. i love the leadership of this man, and am so glad he’s home. just below i’ll type a text that one of his men sent him. tony is a leader and i know that although alot of this deployment was frustrating to him, God used him. he started a men’s group while he was there, and as you can see below he led well in and out of that group.

Text from troop: “I never had the proper opportunity to say thank you. Thank you for taking care of me on this deployment and making sure I was on point when my direct leadership had nothing for me. Throughout this entire deployment there were a plethora of moments where i wasn’t given information, shown the right direction or even left in the dark but you made sure i was informed, on the correct path, and even shined a light or two so that i could find my way and for that again i thank you. Enjoy your leave, do great things, and i’ll see you again soon. A soldier returning home. ”

i’m a proud wife, and i’m better for knowing this man.

peace.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

hey folks. Β sorry i’ve been AWFUL at keeping up with this. here’s Β a little update…

first, and most importantly…my soldier is doing well, and he’s as handsome as ever. πŸ™‚ in comparison to the start of this whole thing, we’re on the homestretch, and for that we’re both grateful. it’s getting quite hot in kuwait now. tony’s been keeping himself busy at the gym, men’s group, and bible study when he isn’t working. we’ve been so blessed to be in such close communication during this deployment. grateful for facetime, but i must admit…i’m ready for a real date!

things here are okay and moving along. work continues to be insanely busy. my partner has one more week of work left, so the real chaos is about to settle in. bracing myself and hoping for the best. we should have a couple of new providers late summer, but the numbers of what we’re losing and what we’re getting certainly don’t match. should be interesting. and by interesting, i clearly mean overwhelming. but, this too shall pass. i am learning alot–new things each day–and that’s what i stay focused on. meanwhile, the countdown is 1 yr 234 days 16 hrs 13 min 18 seconds…

this friday is my birthday. mom and dad are driving in friday from KY and will be here until tuesday next week. i took next m-w off, and i’m so excited to have them. viv and crew are in wilmington this summer for jesse’s work, so they will be coming down saturday-sunday for a birthday weekend! can’t wait. it’s going to be so much fun.

tony’s birthday is 16 june. i’ll put his address here in case anyone wants to send well wishes…

1 LT R. Anthony Leibig

A Troop, 1-104th Cavalry

Task Force Saber

Camp Patriot, APO AE 09337

I mailed his package yesterday and i can’t wait for him to get it so i can explode with excitement!!! he’s going to freak out…i’m freaking out. i love surprises!!!

that’s it for now. i will try to update once we get info about when tony comes home, but who knows when that will be. as i said, my summer at work is about to spiral, so i’m not sure i’m going to get another blog done any time soon.

hope this finds you and yours doing well.

peace, yo.

living social beer fest in DC last month. great people watching, and you could sample beers from different vendors. this is my friend steph, who is hilariously funny and love jesus. i've been really blessed with her friendship during this deployment and can't wait to hang out with her AND tony!

living social beer fest in DC last month. great people watching, and you could sample beers from different vendors. this is my friend steph, who is hilariously funny and love jesus. i’ve been really blessed with her friendship during this deployment and can’t wait to hang out with her AND tony!

 

squeezed in a quick trip to KY last month for this lovely lady's wedding. just love her and her precious husband.

squeezed in a quick trip to KY last month for this lovely lady’s wedding. just love her and her precious husband.

 

lovely flowers from my boyfriend across the world. he loves me well.

lovely flowers from my boyfriend across the world. he loves me well.

 

 

I hate this crap. We all do.

Not much to say really that would sufficiently express the sadness for the families involved, the respect for the first responders and medical personnel, the anger toward the jackass(es) that pulled it off, the gratitude that the ones I know that are/were in Boston are safe, or the frustration with the media that is remarkably good at beating a dead horse. The evil in our world is horrifying. I’m grateful to know how the story ultimately will end, but that doesn’t always take away from the heartache of existing as a fallen humanity. As always, my prayer is that justice will be served, and that those called to deliver the justice will be able to do so safely and efficiently. Godspeed.

In other news…this past weekend my dad came to visit! And, Tony’s dad came through and stayed Friday night also. It was fun…so good to see them both. I’m convinced that if they weren’t in the age bracket they’re in (love you guys), they would start the next revolution. Fox News was on more in a 72 hr time period than it had been literally for the year and a half prior to this weekend. They both think Bill O’Reilley is their best friend, and love to talk about politics and guns. It’s precious and exhausting all at the same time. BAHAHAHAHA! They know I’m messing with them. I love them both dearly and am so blessed to have gotten to spend time with them both. If you don’t know me well enough by now to know that I like to say things for the purpose of a good reaction, then you probably should just stop following the blog. Just always remember, I only pick on those I love a whole whole lot. πŸ˜‰

The weather was perfect for visitors. Ralph (Tony’s dad) only stayed Friday then took off Saturday to see some of his girls. Dad and I went to Great Falls, VA, which was gorgeous. Picnic lunch to top it off. Then that night we proceeded to have dinner outside at McCloon’s Pier House in National Harbor. BEAUTIFUL. And, easily the best filet and asparagus I’ve ever had. Outstanding meal.

Tony is doing well. He’s as handsome as ever. I’m continually blown away by how supportive and encouraging he is even from a distance such as the one we’ve faced this year. He never hesitates to remind me to refocus on the source of our strength, and for that I’m grateful. We are past mid-April now, which means in about 4.5 months he should be leaving Kuwait. Dates aren’t specified yet, nor is the exact homecoming plan. He should be going to Camp Shelby in Mississippi initially, but unsure exactly how long. Then we aren’t sure if there will be a reception for the unit in PA or if they will just fly him here to DC. I don’t care either way as long as he gets to me. Absolutely can’t wait to have him by my side again.

Work is work. Moving forward one day at a time. Learning new things each day. New and harder challenges to come in the next few months, but if I know anything it’s that HE hasn’t yet failed to prove HIMSELF strong on my behalf, and HIS mercies are new each morning.

Continued prayers for those in Boston. Strength and focus to those investigating. And may I be so bold as to say that while I’m angry at the one or ones that carried this out, my prayer is that those responsible will come to know the saving grace of my Jesus, because…well, because I believe the cross was / is enough for them, too.

Peace.

blessing of deployment: the truck is paid off!!!

blessing of deployment: the truck is paid off!!!

i adore him

i adore him

 

 

so i came across this song today that was so refreshing to me. this isn’t a post fishing for sympathy or a pity party. it’s a post confessing that i’m real tired. worn, even. but, i know there’s One that can give me rest. this song came on when i was actually searching for a totally different song, and wow. i needed it. it’s okay to be worn sometimes. while it’s not what we want to think is fair, God often speaks to us most clearly when we’re worn. He grows us when we’re worn. do you ever find yourself wanting to (or ACTUALLY) pray, “God just let this be easy.” i do. sometimes it happens, sometimes it doesn’t. one of my favorite books of the Bible has always been job. it’s a great story of a man who is worn to the core. i remember when i was interviewing for pa school one of the questions my interviewer asked was, “if you could ask any hero one question, what would it be and why?” my response was, and still is “it would be job from the old testament, and i’d ask him what it was like to be broken yet faithful.” i don’t pretend to think that my situation of a job that sucks the life out of me and my husband being gone for a year even remotely compares to the things job endured. i do know though that some days are really hard right now, there’s not a lot of spunk in my step, i’m exhausted about 80% of the time, and my mind and my heart and my body are just a little worn. the great news is that my God is faithful. despite the brokenness that i see in patients every day, the ache in my own heart, the stress from every angle at my job…there’s a grace that always has been, and always will be sufficient. i find it refreshing that God has stories like job in the Bible. i know He’s not intimidated by my expression of weariness. He knows i don’t do everything right so i don’t have to pretend like i do. He sees my frustrations with incompetency, He knows the angst that the nonsensical requirements of my life right now brings to me, he knows my heart aches for my husband, and He’s capable of carrying all of it for me. i’m worn, and i’m learning new things every day. not just about medicine, but about my own character, about how easily i get frustrated, about how my filter doesn’t always work well when things are spiraling at work, about how supportive my husband is even from around the world, about how friends willing to encourage and challenge me are essential, and about how the faithfulness of my Jesus is never-ending. i’m learning that every single day i have to say, “well i didn’t do that quite right. my attitude sucked. jesus forgive me and help be do it better next time.” i’m grateful that His forgiveness never runs dry and that His arm is never too short to reach me where i am. i’m confident that songs do rise from the ashes, that He can and will give me rest, that redemption will win, that the struggle ends, and that He can mend frail hearts. my life is a piece of cake compared to alot, and for that i’m grateful. a precious friend of mine texted me last night randomly and said, “linds, i’m praying for you.” i told her how tired i was and she said, “my pleasure to hold your arms up in the spirit.” it made me teary. then tonight i came home after 12.5 hrs at work, a crappy day to say the least and utterly exhausted to find a package by my door with bath and body works, chocolate and a note from another precious family i know. what a blessing to be surrounded by folks such as these during this year of craziness. and what a challenge for me to be that for someone else in their time of need.

so, i guess what i’m saying is that this is a good place to be. i hate my job, that’s never happened to me before. i hate that my husband isn’t with me, that HAS happened before (haha). but at the end of the day i rest in the peace of knowing that Jesus has my back and despite the fact that i understand very little about what’s going on around me right now…He’s got it all under control. what a relief. WHAT A RELIEF.

here’s the link to the song…it’s kind of awesome.

http://youtu.be/UUEy8nZvpdM

peace.

 

 

 

hey folks. i figured since Feb has officially come and gone, I should probably give an update on life. below also are some pics that tony sent from his trip to kuwait city. they went to the mall. he sent me a pic of his new american eagle shorts. awesome. so while they’re struggling to figure out how in the world we can possible fix our budget, we’re paying for a guard unit to be on active orders to go to american eagle in kuwait. i can think of about 15 legit things that could help our budget, but instead, i’ll just sit back and wait for my civilian nurse and tech to be forced to take unpaid leave…yeah, that seems like a better plan. don’t get me started.

ANYWAY. tony’s doing well. he’s bored alot but we’re grateful he’s safe. september he should be home, which means we’re past the half way mark. less than 6 months to go!!! oh my goodness, i simply can’t wait. i almost can’t even imagine what it will feel like to look over and see him on the couch. just can’t wait.

work is insane. we’re losing about 50% of our providers this summer which means it’s going to only get worse. right now no word of new folks coming in. they told us at a briefing a few weeks ago that providers should not expect to have any leave approved this summer. my prayer and hope is that this issue will be resolved before tony comes home, because i have been saving leave to be able to take time off when he gets home. we shall see.

otherwise, life is moving right along. i’m in a few small groups from church this quarter that are great. i’ve made some great friends and accountability partners from those groups and it’s been great to have such fun people to hang out with, especially while tony is gone.

here are some pics. hope all is well with you and yours…

xander and me on a quick trip home i took for valentines weekend

xander and me on a quick trip home i took for valentines weekend

 

date night deployment-style ;)

date night deployment-style πŸ˜‰

 

my favorite little boys valentines weekend

my favorite little boys valentines weekend

 

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from my brother..presented to us. this flag was flown on a mission during chase's deployment to kandahar last year. an amazing gift. so proud of my little bro.

from my brother..presented to us. this flag was flown on a mission during chase’s deployment to kandahar last year. an amazing gift. so proud of my little bro.

 

certificate that came with the flag

certificate that came with the flag

 

tony got to move into his own room! and he's actually now moving again, but to another single room.

tony got to move into his own room! and he’s actually now moving again, but to another single room.

 

 

 

 

 

friends and fam…sorry I have been AWFUL this month at updating. i have a couple long weekends in feb and hope to do a longer post then. but for now…

tony is doing well! he’s bored, but grateful to be bored rather than in danger. time is moving along quickly for him, and for that i’m grateful. work is insane here. got an email a couple weeks ago stating i have the most patients out of all the providers in family health. should be capped at 1,250 but i currently have 1,340. nightmare. this summer we are losing nearly 50% of our providers, and not a peep about new providers coming in. so, to say things are busy and stressful is an understatement. thanks for your patience with the blog updates.

I did just finish being certified as a pediatric advanced life support (PALS) instructor. So, not i have that and ACLS under my belt, which I really enjoy.

HIS grace continues to prove to be sufficient. most days are alright. but there are some days when the morning prayer on my drive in is simply, “jesus, just get me to lunch, and we’ll talk again.” he never fails to answer.

valentine’s day is around the corner. i’m flying home for a quick trip to be with family for the weekend. can’t wait. i have a special date planned…just binz and xander.

will post more in the next couple of weeks.

peace.

folks, it was COLD this day. like 8 degrees. tomorrow it will be like 70. it's stupid.

folks, it was COLD this day. like 8 degrees. tomorrow it will be like 70. it’s stupid.

 

my handsome soldier

my handsome soldier

 

 

 

his transport around base

his transport around base

living quarters

living quarters

mascot kitty

mascot kitty

office he shares with squadron commander

office he shares with squadron commander

view outside office

view outside office

view from gate

view from gate

this is what tony sent me saying this will be his post-deployment body after all the gym time he's getting. goober.

this is what tony sent me saying this will be his post-deployment body after all the gym time he’s getting. goober.

 

Hi friends and family! These are some pictures that Tony sent a couple weeks ago for me to post to give everyone a little idea of where he is. He’s doing well! He’s bored…redundant days. He described it as the movie Groundhog Day. Ha! But, he’s feeling well. Today he announced at the chapel service that he’s starting a men’s Bible group. I COULD NOT BE MORE PROUD OF THIS MAN!! Pray for him as he starts this up. They start this Friday night.

In the next week or so I’ll post pics from my trip home. My goodness, it was sweet to be with family. So sweet, in fact, I’m already scoping ticket prices for my next visit. There is nothing more therapeutic than sitting on the couch at my parents house or my sisters and carrying on like a crazy person with the most awesome family. What a tremendous support they are.

Hope you and yours are off to a great start in 2013. All I know, is we’re more than one month down on this journey, and I can’t wait for it to end! In the meantime…it’s back to work for me tomorrow.

Peace yo.

 

 

 

 

 

Well folks, it’s been one year today that I married this crazy guy that is half way around the world on our first anniversary. And, while last night was hard, today has been good. Here’s why…I married a man that is selfless, and that believes in something bigger than himself. He is passionate about what he does, and a man passionate about his calling and about God’s hand in his life is the most I could have dreamed for. I miss him dearly, but he makes me feel adored even from across the world, and for that I am grateful. It’s a challenging time, but I tell ya…we’re blessed.

Here’s our year by bullet points…most of it you’ll know about, some of it will only make him smile: wedding day. donut cushions. long flights with chills. sitz baths. honeymoon in dreamy sanibel. mucky duck. sanibel grill. lost luggage. longest drive ever to our new home. one week to settle. training. spiritual warfare. mono. seizure? sports authority. andrews afb. scared to death. PANCE studying. PANCE panic. PANCE passing. drill weekends. patient panel of 1250 pts. 90 patients per week. PT tests. annual traning. warfighter exercise. oldtown dates. subway dinners. annapolis adventure. redo honeymoon this time without illness. deployment orders. amazing church and small group. budgeting and eliminating debt. premobilization. hard sundays. amazing support. 3 day pass. more premob. harder sundays. admin duties. ACLS and PALS instructor training. ATLS certification. trips to the white house. roadtrips to bloomsburg. passing of the journal. thanksgiving 7 day pass. parents. food. ale 8. fires. bond 45 date to national harbor. hardest day ever. care packages. christmas packages. mail from friends. one month down. facetime dates.

the moral of the story, is that I’d rather have this cluster of a life with this guy, than ‘normal’ with anyone else. Thank you, Tony, for loving me well, for leading our family well, and for being passionate about things bigger than we are. Thanks for being a man of integrity and humility…it is most attractive. Love you much…can’t wait for you to be home.

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dec 2011

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Honeymoon

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Graduated…0400 wake up calls and mono = not alot of fun

 

 

 

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PT test training

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Celebrating passing PANCE

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May 2012

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June date night before he left for Warfighter exercise

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July

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Aug repeat honeymoon to Sanibel

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Sept 3 day pass

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Premob

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Oct break

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Thanksgiving–date night for early anniversary celebration

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Soldier in Kuwait just last week

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Airman in MD.

Thanks for sharing in our journey πŸ™‚

my goofer

my goofer

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Just wanted everyone to be able to see that our soldier is in good spirits…and good form. πŸ˜‰ he’s a goofball, but he’s my goofball, and it’s always a surprise to see what the daily picture will be. never a normal face…never. and I love it.

 

peace.